huBbY recent picture !!!

yeah !!! my hubby recent picture ~ i like it ... miss u huBbY !!!

i don't know how was his studied ~ coz he never told me ...

misssssss u ... every secound , every minute when that i hv free ... i will miss u , thinking about u ... haha ...

worry about him , did he has enought sleep ? haiz ... ben ben ...

today went to skul , hoh my class hv many things happend o ~

haiz , actually is who r wrong ? dunno ...

wat is happend ? dunno ...

swt ... i just a day didn't go to skul ...

wow ...

a true friendship can broke esaiest ?

who can answer me ?

y most of my fren who arround me also have some problem about frens ?

really hope my fren can esteem our friendship !!!

sorry hubby ~

sorry for i annoyed with u ...

because sometime u seem like too busy to do ur things ...

but i hope u will give sometime for me to hv a chat with me ...

sometime hope u will ask me "wat r u hv done dear " or u will tell me how was ur day in london

although is a small thing ...

yet i also will happy that u share with me ...

miss u voice , ur hug ... hope u can always beside me ...

hApPy mOOncAkE feStIvaL o ...

can i be a selfish gal ?

sometime i really hope that i'm a person who r a selfish gal ... i wish i can be selfish to my hubby , i won't allow him to find his ex or the gal who he like be4 either they find him ... but i know i can't ... coz i hv to give him some freedom ...

everytime i view his profile , i will get hurt once again ... coz he still putting the pic that his ex love it & wrote DE LOVE FLOWER ... MY WIFE'S FAVOURITE ... MUAKX .. LOVE U HONEY ... the testi still there ... lou gong lou po ... but ... haiz ... wat is the value of me in his heart ? a lover of his ? or a fren that close with he only ? did he care about my feeling ?

promise me wanna change the phone number but nevr do it ... promise me won't find them but still keep in touch with them ... wat can i do is just assume he never do it & just hv me inside his heart ~

my heart doesn't allow me to be a selfish gal ... that's y i always get hurt by my lover & frens ... tired ...

dreaming about hubby !!!

feel tired ~ take a nap , still dream about hubby ... this few days worry about hubby in london , dunno how is he now ... many question hiding inside my heart ... dare not to ask ... this noon dreamt about him , in the dream , i meet him on9 ... asking him y seldom msg me , he answer me y any gal need ppl's attention even a minute ... asking me to give some freedom for him ..

i answered him "okay" ... then logoff ... when i get up felf this is so real scared me ... soon i go to on9 , and logon my frenster saw his testi that he sent to me around 4pm .... if i choose to be with him , should i believe on him ? should i give him some time?

i think yes ... i should do all this since i start to be with him ... love u , hubby ... miss u ... take a good care ... thank you hubby to be with me ...

tired + moody ~

i feel tired ... no just my body but my heart also felt tried 4 loving a person ~ a person that who i love the most careless about me ... tired to think about him again , but i can't stop think becoz my mind were full of him ~

thinking izzit he love me too ... how is he doing in london ... do he miss me like i do ??? although he got on-line but ... and i found a msg that he leave to a gal ... do u think the gal are more important than me ???

really feel tired ... i hope he know how i feel ... wish he can care about me ... do he know wat am i thinking about ? i lost my braveness to ask him do he love me ? y he seems to be so careless about me ... izzit he still still love her ?

inside my heart full of questions , can he answer it ???? can he notice it ??? no , right ... coz u never look after me ...

unhappy day ~

haiz ~ wake up on the morning went out hving breaksfast with parents but i get scold by my mother ... haiz ... is ok ... back home my mother scold again ... ok , fine ... i let she scold !!! i just hving a breakfast ... at the noon i went out to finess first , night go & find my mother at jusco ... get home brother was scolding coz we didn't buy a dinner for him ...



haiz ... this is not our fault coz we hv called home , but no ppl pick up the call .. my father thought him was hanging out with his frens ... haiz ... all scolding ... me also get scold ... none of my business also get scold ... haiz ...

hate ... i really hate today ... unhappy day for me !!!

yeah ~ belover went out with me yesterday !!!

haha... feel happy coz hubby went out with me yesterday !!! miss him so much ~ haha ~ watched naraka 19 with hubby !!! yeah , hving lunch with him at sushi king , taking pictures with him at sungai wang ... all of this i won't forget even he return to london ... coz i will remember what has he did for me ... i love u ...

chat with him by the phone till 2 am or so ... coz miss he's voice ... hubby , i miss u ... all the best for u to ur studies at london , i will always remember u & keep it work what that i have promise u ....

today ... is a sadness day for me , coz my hubby leaving kl at 11.35am ... i try to be strong but i can't do it ... when i was reach home switch on the phone hv received his two msg ... he wanna me to promise him work hard for SPM & take k for myself ... since i saw this msg my tears welled up in my eyes ....

now i 'm waiting his msg , coz he promise me if can to give me a msg when he reach there ...

beloved will return to london on fri ...

after i hving skul , i striaght away back home ... coz too tired & i dun have enough sleep on'yday ~

while i reach home my phone was on call by my belover ... he told me that his visa hving some problem , so he will return to london on fri ... not leave on tomorrow !!!

today i got back my add math paper , i failed it ... haiz !!! y i'm so stupid to taking the add math subject ??? haiz ... add math , will ipass in SPM ? but i think it is hard for me ...

hubby now hving tea time with his fren ... so miss him now ... hope can see him right now !!! but i know i can't ... coz i scared if i hug him i won't let him back to there again , my tears will loss control !!!

will i see him on tmr ? i wish i can see him ~ miss him ...

hubby not feeling well ~

i'm happy to wait for skul bell ring at the last period , coz my hubby will wait for me at the main door ~ i was rush to the main door while i was see him ~ he walk with me & we hving a leisure chat ... i love this felf , so romantic !!!

at the noon he told me he was not feeling well ~ i so worry about him , due to he not enough sleep !!! i was upset coz he can't accompany me today ... but just now we on the phone he told me he was ok .

at 4 pm or so , i was call my fren to accompany me hving a steamboot dinner at minda ~

but 1stly i hv to wait for my fren after she hv danced ... so i was follow her to the yoga dance !!! wow , the teacher is a great dancer ...

write on 11st sept but i post on today , coz i was too tired after hving my steamboot dinner !!! i hv to said sorry to my fren coz i accidentally did something to my fren while we hving dinner ~

i loss myselt !!!

this few weeks i'm living at moody life ~ i really dunno what kind of mood that i hv at the coming next minute ... i hv felt upset becuase of love ~ i really hate this kind of feeling can't share with my fren even i hv a lot of fren .. coz the image that i give my fren i'm a smiling , cheerful girl . so , i won't do something to let my fren worry about me ...

my beloved seldom be honest to me ... this make me feel worry , i dunno what he has think about it !!! i hope he will be honest to me , share his thing with me yet i can't help him ~ this make me feel i'm a useless gal , nothing can't do for him . he will leave soon , coz he need to return to london keep on his studies ...

he has no time to be with me this few days , coz he was accompanying his fren !!! he knew i felt annoyed to him because of this ... but he still did it !
now i loss confident , is it he love me ??? i can't find the answer ...

what is love ? this kinda love i really hate it , i loss myself become moody due to this !!!